a poem...

There are times when I avoid the Television,
not even a cursory glance
at the latest in the Net.
Close the windows
and door, put on the blinders.
It reeks of blood in here, I say
the war
the killings
the wails.

Inject morphine
cocaine, hashish
a large dose
suck it in
rub it up the nose.
Ecstasy.
Ha,
if only they knew
the agony of destruction.
The gnawing reality of
waiting for the child
in the morgue.

Disproportionate retaliations

I don’t know how many readers of this blog are aware that something is seriously going wrong in Middle East. The Israeli air strikes on Palestine wherein scores of civilians’ died has the potential to spin out of control. This blogger is not an admirer of Huntington hypothesis (incidentally he died few days back, condolences) but yes when societies are continuously stressed on one aspect of identity then gradually that becomes the defining factor. Religion therefore becomes the fracture line in Middle East while in Sri Lanka language and so on. The society therefore acquires single defining perspective this then gets exaggerated with historical and other contexts. In the melee the reality of the people and other defining dimensions gets lost.

This blogger has been keenly following the events in Middle East, in JNU attended some discussion groups and listened to some prominent people. I also am a keen follower of Tim Sebastian’s debates on Middle east (it was a genuine and valiant effort, I admire that man). However the division is so acute on the lines of religion, very much exploited by fundamentalists and opportunists on both the sides, that this blogger is exasperated (like I was more than a decade back, we even had jokes on Middle East!!). One feels there really is no political solution to this problem despite the best efforts of many in international community. Only steps of containment can help, the first step could be to extricate the societies from one dimensional identity. Understanding societies in its holistic sense, in their uniqueness, consisting of individuals with dimensions that are being lost in these stressful situations is an important step. It is a step towards creating sensitive and empathetic societies, this blogger feels that way.

Back in India the far right scoundrels who are advocating Israeli like retaliations on Pakistan should learn from these blunders. Some porcine experts even suggested “hot pursuit” from TV studios…yah babe I like it hot!!. I guess I should end with something funny in these difficult times for people. Sometime back I saw a TV anchor in one of the TV channel reporting from a thick bush (?!!) that Pakistan was preparing for war!!!. Innovative dude!!. Don’t know what has war got to do with being in the bush also considering that border is mostly desert!!. Anyway it was entertaining. Maybe if he had ended the “reporting” by leaping onto the camera that would been spectacular and definitely increased the profit!!.

God in small things !!

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Titli udi, udke chali !!

Butterfly (or titli in hindi, Chitrashalabam in Malayalam) is an amazing creature. There was a time when it was very common to find them around now they have vanished completely atleast in the cities. The best part of growing up in cantonments is that it generally has lots of open space gardens and trees, and therefore varieties of insects…butterfly, dragonflies so on. Even now if this blogger comes across any butterfly while traveling I do spend time to look at it and attempt to identify (there are always little yellows, sootywings, and occasional monarchs and admirals). The other day I froze these in my camera, they came out amazing.

Going with the beauty of this creature different societies have some equally suitable and amusing names. Here are some Papillion (in French), Farfalla (in Italian), Kupu kupu (in Indonesia), Fluture (in Romania), Parvani (Farsi), Farasha (in Arabic), Buraburay (in Ethiopia), Babochka (in Russia…I like that one), Kelebek (in Turkey)…..and of course Chou Chou (in Japan) and Buom Buom (in Vietnam). Appropriately there is lots of playfulness in many of these names. That is impression you when you watch them. Incidentally the ancient Greeks called butterflies psyche!!. Psyche means mind. Meaning mind is like a butterfly. Greeks knew it centuries back. Incredible people.

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An open letter to Arundhati Roy (with some additions)

Hello,

I read your article “The monster in the Mirror” in The Guardian the other day (readers can visit http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2008/dec/12/mumbai-arundhati-roy to read it). I couldn’t help not to respond. I wrote this as I read so it is moving with the paragraphs. In the onset you start with McCain, I guess, I ignore that since he lost the election. Clearly the Republicans are trying to justify their unilateral actions in Iraq, instigating the hawks in India to fall for it. My concern is the later paragraph that I quote here “We're told one of these hotels is an icon of the city of Mumbai. That's absolutely true. It's an icon of the easy, obscene injustice that ordinary Indians endure every day”. I believe that Taj is an iconic building because of its location and history, as much as Gateway of India is. I have endured lots of crap in my daily life and have seen lots of people around me in abysmal surroundings that are painful. Yes when people have money (and power) one can have it easy, some even take high moral ground from this cushy foundation. Nothing wrong in that I guess it is a free country (as Bush said recently “in a free society people seek attention”) but the tragedy is when some mediocre people start to represent the agony of people for their selfish end. In cities these breed go by the nomenclature “celebrity activist” (i guess you refered them in one of your earlier articles years back, these are not very popular people trying to compensate their lack of popularity with activism. Attention seekers whom we all have contempt for), they are acutely aware of demands and supply needs of market. The return of investment is quite high just need to latch on to clinches. However the luxury in Taj cannot be juxtaposed to problems common people endure, that is unfair. In that case one will have to go against all forms of luxury, also it is quite subjective- what you may consider as need is a luxury for me. You catch a flight and go abroad can be quoted as “when millions of people cannot have daily meal she has the temerity to travel in luxury”. If I could write prose like you maybe I could have written better. “Roy is the icon of obscene injustice” because of the place you reside (it is undeniably a posh locality), to the kind of place you go to eat (you look unlikely candidate for road side dabba)….one can go on like this. We live in an unequal society that is a fact. The fact also is that there are hundreds of luxury hotels in the country and so are there millions of extremely poor people, there are people who catch bus to work there are people who use luxury cars. There are people whose articles get published in Guardian and some write blogs!!!. So what?. According to the laws of the society we live these are not crimes. Also some of these people don’t deserve what they have but then who am I to comment?. Capitalism seems to be the best form, there doesn’t seem to be any alternative. And yes government earns money through taxes, there is also luxury tax. Fair enough.

One of my all time favorite movie is Roshomon, the Japanese movie by the legendary Kurosawa. Now here is a situation that has claim to varied truth, true from each person’s perspective. Another truth about Taj (run by TATAs) is that JRD was amazing man. He was one the greatest human being I have ever come across. His contribution to Indian society is immense and I adore him.

The newspaper and TV channels nowadays come out with one liners that are nothing short of buffoonery. It is the impact of market competition, and they say it leads to quality!!. In USA they now compete as beggars for doles from government. “Hungry kya?” is that absurd excuse to reach the consumers, I wouldn’t be surprised if these guys have delegated these decisions on titles to teenagers!!. “intellectual infancy”. Most section in media are beyond redemption I gave up on them long time back but the claim to freedom of expression is what kept me amusing. The question is who ever take print media seriously!!. Yes they trivialize the issue, worst is they mostly have no value for life of common people. One shouldn’t blame them since they are catering to their consumers and that is the least they can get responsible in capitalism. In the meantime though democracy as a concept is eulogized the reality is there is every attempt to shift the power to market. Thankfully the recent happening in US Financial world has put a long pause to that arrogance. Storm troopers of market are rare sight now!!.Suhel Seth and Suketu Mehta (dude!!) are the kind of people without whom world will be incomplete, they are the kind of people whom I have stopped taking seriously. But yes the kind of access they have is astounding. Small miracles these.

I found the idea of Side A and Side B very interesting, and yes there is no religion for terrorists and murderers. Religion is being misused whether it is Hafiz Saeed or Babu Bajrangi or Hitler, these are the worst kind of people. I also believe the ambit of any new law on terror should include attacks on minority. Creating an atmosphere of terror on certain section of community itself is an act of terrorism. However external threat is more grievous and should be given the seriousness it deserves, that in anyway doesn’t negate the atrocities committed on common people in the name of caste, religion or even class.

I too agree with Side B- context is important. I agree with the historical perspective and also the fact that India shouldn’t be taking the high moral ground vis-à-vis its experiment with LTTE. Imagine if the world had more of Tamil population (like Muslims), India could be in the position where Pakistan is today, if not worse. Pakistan seems to be victim of circumstances generously helped by incompetent and self serving egoistic feudal leaders (the kind India had till 70s).

There are some relative truth that have wider application, the “secular” politicians of this country have been squeezing it for more than a decade. There are some other truths too and that is Babri Masjid demolition didn’t have anything to do with common people of this country. It is about powerful people scoring points against each other as and when it suits them, so do the terrorists. Further what happened in Gujarat or what is happening in Kashmir is internal matter of the country, off course it is tragic and if needed be condemned at international forum. But that shouldn’t be the ‘context’ for anyone based in Pakistan (as I understand the identities are proved beyond doubt, as also complexities of rogue elements from this region), that will fall into Side A - pan Islamic jihad against infidels. You in the search of contexts are treading into dangerous zones Ms Roy. Most importantly you seem to have conveniently forgotten the deliberate attack on Jews at Nariman. What kind of context we have there?. Or the fact that few Keralites were found fighting in Kashmir. Explain that context. You surely are trying to twist the “contexts” into the narration you see obvious.

There are other narrations that too should be obvious. There are millions of people who face all kinds of atrocities from State simply because of circumstances they are in. Sometimes it has connotations of religion, caste, region or class, in most case it is just a coincidence. Since it is random it doesn’t become an issue, it may end up as millions of small news column somewhere in the country, most cases it is not noticed. Life is too cheap in here. Since it is not an issue there is no political mobilization or any article written, worst there is no scope for international press. It just doesn’t fall into comprehensible narration. The issues of Muslims though seems to (or made to) fall into a pattern and therefore the angst exaggerated, not denying that in recent times there has been lots of pressure on this community. I will give an example there was issue raised by an attention seeking “celebrity” that being a Muslim she was denied house in Mumbai. Are Muslims the only one who faces these biases? I recall when I was a kid we were in Jaipur, every day after dinner for almost 6 months we went to search house to take on rent and had difficult time. The reasons varied from being south Indians to Non veg to even whether you eat onions or garlic (very amusing we thought). Later in mid nineties I found that students from Bihar or UP found it difficult to get room on rent in Karol Bagh, wherein they preferred south Indians (I found that punjabis just hate biharis). They thought guys from Bihar-UP are ruffians who will not shift. Nowadays I do have problems getting rooms while I travel to religious centers as they don’t prefer singles!!. Prejudices happen at many levels and it too has contexts. If I was a house owner in Mumbai it is but natural for me to suspect tenants with Muslim names, if tomorrow Sikhs are involved in killings the same will be applied to Sikhs. If Tamilians or Keralites are involved, ditto. But yes I will have no problem with people whom I know or have references whom I trust. That is very human, it may sound like prejudice, I guess the onus is not entirely on me since I am trying to live a peaceful life so taking precautions (as for the attention seekers trying to sensationalize and be in the news. Even I wouldn’t like her to be anywhere near where I stay. She should do some introspection than whining; understand most Indians would love to have Amir Khan or Shah Rukh as their neighbors. Anytime. Try not mix disgust to a person with prejudice on a community).

Also I believe the statement of “not to pay taxes” was expression of collective anger, it is a vent of frustration. Obviously nobody had that seriously working in their mind. What they were expecting was minimum safety standards and some responsibility from political leadership. If one can have the vision to see the contexts of terrorists one assumes that this should have been easy. (Also since we are talking about contexts how about judging LK Advani from the context of partition, that should have been catastrophic experience for him).

Further most people in this country don’t have high regards for cops, rarely anyone have good experiences dealing with them. It is not about particular section but is universal. I for instance steer clear of police (I didn’t report even once although my home has been burgled many time. “don’t want to get into trouble” is what i believe?!!). Yes i do think that minorities are doubly at risk in recent times. In kerala it is rare to come across these kind of prejudices (the cops hit randomly!!. I too got a lathi once during my college days. Never underestimate the lathi, it pains horribly!!). I guess there is an urgent need to induct people from minorities into law and machinery. It need be done at the earliest (I have written about Kashmir in my earlier blog you may read, if you have time!!).

Clearly writers and columnists too nowadays have an eye on Big Picture, individuals dying in thousands daily everywhere from causes they don’t understand (including those killed in the recent attacks) are collateral damage for central issues or shall we say contexts. So senseless killings are hinted to a cause albeit with much care and dexterity of words. The other day I was reading this brilliant Short Story by Karel Capex (Czech writer), it is an amazingly compassionate story (titled the "Last Judgement"). The story is about a tribunal in heaven. On trial is a multiple killer (named Kugler) who was recently killed by a policeman. God is present, but only as a witness. He will not judge the accused, for he knows everything about him. God says “…because my knowledge is infinite. If judges knew everything, absolutely everything, then they would understand everything. Their heart would ache. They couldn’t sit in judgment neither can I. As it is they know only about your crime, I know all about you. The entire Kugler. And that is why I cannot judge”. (Incidentally the Judges are the same people who judged people on earth !!). What this amazing story is saying is: To know everything is to understand everything; to understand everything is to know the necessary causes of everything. In the eyes of God therefore there can be no guilt only comprehension. Amazing stuff..

Kugler then ask God “But why are they judging…the same people who were judges on earth?”

“Because man belongs to man. As you see, I am only the witness. But the verdict is determined by man, even in heaven. Believe me Kugler, this is the way it should be. Man isn’t worthy of divine judgment. He deserves to be judged only by other men”.

Incredible story that one!!

Regards,

Depalan

PS. A minor detail: I came for Rally for Valley” to Narmada in 1998, it was a great experience, though I slipped into serious debt after that and took few months to recover!!