Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Death as a "Dalit" student: Rohith Vemula is the final act of defiance


Before getting into this let’s point out that there is an ever strong attempt at classifying as Dalit in the mainstream narration wherein this is a reference used in context of discrimination, hence in a machiavellian twist, by giving identities squatter’s template is sought to not only authenticated but seen as compassionate. Meanwhile in another compelling scuffle, that determines these primitive frontiers, Guhaji’s tweets express angst for Kashmiri ‘pandits’. The matrix is well defined only the playact differ, the narration strongly focussed on showcasing as civilised. Kasturi&Sons, with blessing showered from debauchery, have been in the forefront of providing intellectual solace. The reason why you need to target them, they also pose as left leaning intellectuals in an attempt at copying the enlightened sections in Europe. Valiant attempts at ‘social grouping’ ‘pride, prejudice and preference’ are attributed as a legacy of some kind of exotic culture to hide brutal realities. There is also an attempt by elitist left to give a communal angle to what is essentially brutal casteist acts, it’s a habitual attempt at obfuscating boundaries and bring in legitimacy to their nefarious angst.  Meanwhile, as always, feeding crude mullahs is showcased as defining moment of tolerance, how much these have degraded society doesn’t even need any study but what needs study is how much debouched indian elites have degraded countries like Britain with their conceptions. The regressive multiculturalism is quite clearly spiralling down Britain and is indeed constant threat to the world. Progressiveness is much enlightened thought that really cannot come from primitive crude settings, the least from Indians. To start with Britain needs to answer a basic question: why it is allowing spaces for discriminations in the name of faith? If a mosque perpetuates gender discrimination in its religious space, if temples allow discriminations in the name of ‘fatal accidents’ of birth (to quote Rohit Vermula) as in the credential of priests as also primitive identities …then these should be demolished. Meanwhile gandhians are on the lookout for non-existent harijans from their deepening caste pits for immediate patronizing and claw their way to high moral grandstanding.   

Indians have much freedom compared to other countries but that doesn’t translate to any form of responsibility, empathy or excellence, indeed it has become outlet for all kinds of regressiveness and pathetic ways, outsiders are fed on exotic cosmic chaos. Truth is much humbling and devastating. Indians are constantly meshed in their own crude conceptions meanwhile having high estimate about themselves. This crudeness controls all the institutions that attempts at giving high moral narrations while treading crap. Indian media, who tends to play some kind of benign intellectuals, should be severely censured for perpetuating caste cannibalism in crude ways of reporting, matrimonial columns so on. The worst is the judiciary (that have been elevated by market media as saviours) who play super squatter’s, and indeed very much susceptible to debouched influence and camaraderie. The reason why Kasturi&Sons and higher judiciary constantly fed and nurtured buffoons like Subramanium Swamy, there is a dangerous pattern to this. If far right in US have guns as defining identity then crude Indians have their caste, they both have high estimate about oneself and ready with dubious god ordained reasoning. In the US they kill here they cannibalise. In US they are simplistic while in India they are so cunning that they constantly, and with much ease, shift all spectrums of thoughts, in camaraderie, in high moral jubilance. They could be left, right, gandhian or marketers or what not that makes it sinister. This cannibalistic society is going nowhere despite high inspiring good intentioned talks by the PM.

This is the suicide letter by Rohit Vemula, a poignant final act of defiance and yes Indian elite shouldn’t be allowed to latch on with their habitual angst. Meanwhile this blogger again call upon international community to classify India as a racist country and severely stricture this primitive society.  

Good morning,
I would not be around when you read this letter. Don’t get angry on me. I know some of you truly cared for me, loved me and treated me very well. I have no complaints on anyone. It was always with myself I had problems. I feel a growing gap between my soul and my body. And I have become a monster. I always wanted to be a writer. A writer of science, like Carl Sagan. At last, this is the only letter I am getting to write.

I loved Science, Stars, Nature, but then I loved people without knowing that people have long since divorced from nature. Our feelings are second handed. Our love is constructed. Our beliefs colored. Our originality valid through artificial art. It has become truly difficult to love without getting hurt.

The value of a man was reduced to his immediate identity and nearest possibility. To a vote. To a number. To a thing. Never was a man treated as a mind. As a glorious thing made up of star dust. In very field, in studies, in streets, in politics, and in dying and living.

I am writing this kind of letter for the first time. My first time of a final letter. Forgive me if I fail to make sense.

May be I was wrong, all the while, in understanding world. In understanding love, pain, life, death. There was no urgency. But I always was rushing. Desperate to start a life. All the while, some people, for them, life itself is curse. My birth is my fatal accident. I can never recover from my childhood loneliness. The unappreciated child from my past.

I am not hurt at this moment. I am not sad. I am just empty. Unconcerned about myself. That’s pathetic. And that’s why I am doing this.

People may dub me as a coward. And selfish, or stupid once I am gone. I am not bothered about what I am called. I don’t believe in after-death stories, ghosts, or spirits. If there is anything at all I believe, I believe that I can travel to the stars. And know about the other worlds.

If you, who is reading this letter can do anything for me, I have to get 7 months of my fellowship, one lakh and seventy five thousand rupees. Please see to it that my family is paid that. I have to give some 40 thousand to Ramji. He never asked them back. But please pay that to him from that.

Let my funeral be silent and smooth. Behave like I just appeared and gone. Do not shed tears for me. Know that I am happy dead than being alive.

“From shadows to the stars.”

Uma anna, sorry for using your room for this thing.
To ASA family, sorry for disappointing all of you. You loved me very much. I wish all the very best for the future.
For one last time,
Jai Bheem


I forgot to write the formalities. No one is responsible for my this act of killing myself. No one has instigated me, whether by their acts or by their words to this act. This is my decision and I am the only one responsible for this. Do not trouble my friends and enemies on this after I am gone